Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Lately



Lately...

I've been working, I got myself a second job after being with only a 3/4 time job (better than part time don't you think) for about a month and a half so things are looking a little more stable financially. Well, that is, they were, until we got noticed at my apartment that it the rent is raising and we need to agree to another year... neither I nor my roommate are interested in that so it's to the internets I went a searching. After not too much hard work and a lot of good thoughts into the universe I found an adorable place. I'll be moving farther south to an apartment with a great view as seen above (let's hope people don't buy and build in the next 6 months) and a new friend. While it wasn't an ideal time money wise, it is definitely a push I needed. I'm really excited.

I've been going back and forth on using Tinder. I'm not one who believes heavily in internet dating for myself, I'm a bit of a strange bird when it comes to dating in general, so Tinder is a bit of a game, but it's an addicting and while also annoying I just can't seem to quit it fully. I did stop for a while because I found myself uninterested in actually meeting the guys I was matched with, but then I got bored or lonely or frustrated with the lack of single men I come across weekly and went back on it. I ALMOST met up with someone but they showed their true colors right before and so it just wasn't meant to be. It was comical though, someday I'll probably tell you the story. Last weekend though I met up with a few different guys from it, they didn't start as dates which is perfect for me, way less pressure. But one turned into an awesome night that I will never forget that included a rose, dancing in parking lots and a 3am trip to the Parthenon. That was a win.

I have been watching a lot of tv and movies via netflix and checking them out from the library. I went and saw The Longest Ride in theaters with a friend of mine and about died. There's a rodeo coming in May, guess who's goin. This girl.

At work I've been figuring out how to feel like I've done enough for each day, how to structure my work with the assignments that I get handed. I am fine tuning existing procedures and adding some things here and there. I'm working most on being present and finding solutions for my frustrations rather than think it's time to do something else. I have a pretty amazing situation going on here, and I want to make it even better.

I've started reading this amazing book called Come As You Are by Emily Nagoski, Ph.D. and ladies, this is a game changer. I don't think I've written much on here about my human sexuality studies over the years, but this book... this book should be required reading for women. It's not the bs you read in Cosmo/Glamour/Women's Health about all the tricks and tips to better satisfy xyz, this is a self improvement you-are-completely-normal-even-if-none-of-your-friends-have-that-same-experience kind of book. It's about how desire isn't a switch you just turn on. This is monumental. Well, it could be monumental if many woman and even some men read it. I'll be posting more about it I'm sure. I'm in love with this book.

It's been a mix. I was feeling really low for a couple weeks and then snapped out of it and had a really awesome following few days. I know that technically being happy is a choice, but sometimes we make that choice, or we try our best to make that choice and either we aren't ready or we haven't been convinced yet. And then something snaps into place, it just clicks over and everything is fine and wonderful again. I think it helped that the sun came out and it got warm. The warm parts of Spring are my favorite.

How have you been?

xoxo

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